Retired pastor and go 18 months I have been hurting. I left the ministry in good standing. The people loved me hated to see me go. But after I went there were some who hurt me. I forgave them. Took me a little while it was a deep wound. My family stayed at the church. And now my dear friend of 36 years left our friendship. There is just so much pain. No community, no family to fellowship with, and four major hits by individuals. I am now depressed(never have been). Seeing a counselor. But I cannot get peace in my suffering. The pain is so high so layered. Please pray for me.